Headed into Happier Places

Today is my first visit with a therapist. First-EVER. To say I'm nervous could be an understatement.

I don't think it's a surprise to anybody that I suffered from various eating disorders for a short amount of time starting late high school and continuing into...oh wait, ED stays with you forever! I couldn't tell you when I "stopped" or "healed" since I will always struggle with at least thoughts of ED, but I started improving my quality of life at about the time that I met my husband. (Roughly 2 years ago.)

However, when I started to steer clear of my poisonous eating habits, is when I really noticed that I was developing other issues. {I could have been this way my whole life, I just don't remember!} I started to get really controlling & anxious. Growing up I would always "make fun" of my mother & how controlling and crazy she "was." But when I started to develop into an adult similar to my mother I took a step back & realized that she wasn't crazy at all, it's just how she functioned. {Love ya long time Mom (: } 

However, I didn't think anything was really wrong with me. I mean, my mom was fine, and it didn't seem like she talked to any specialists or anything, so why would I need to? I started to believe that what I was dealing with inside was what everyone dealt with. And that's where I thought wrong. 

While everyone has stresses in their lives, and different reactions to everything, what I am dealing with inside is not normal. There are doctors out there that are trained just for what I'm going through. And while I haven't been to the therapist yet, {T minus 4 hours!} I do believe that I suffer from some level of anxiety. I know that it runs in various members of my extended family, so hopefully I can find the right doctors to help me find a happier me.

God doesn't design everyone's bodies the same, just as he especially doesn't design everybody's minds the same. A church primary song comes to mind:

"I know you, and you know me.

We are as different as the sun and the sea.

I know you and you know me,

and that's the way it is supposed to be."

Everyone has a different path in this life. And along that path are different trials. Luckily, sometimes our paths cross with others a little bit & we are able to find people who can relate to our problems and even give us solutions that we wouldn't normally have thought of.

Hopefully all goes well for me today, and even more importantly I hope that all goes well for YOU today (:

30-ish

For lack of having anything better to write about I, Chels, have decided to do the 30-day blog challenge.

But don't expect me to finish because I'm verrrrry good at quitting. It's a talent really.

Sooooo,

DAY 1:

A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.

Yep, that would be moi!

Lovely lovely webcam.

My day was dandy. I woke up late, ate a very BIG {but not very yummy} breakfast. Went to work, did lots and lots of boring stuff like work and such. Ate some Panda Ex for lunch. {Twas the best meal I've had all day-chow mein & orange chicken baby!} And then I came home and did some more deep cleaning of my room & danced around in my underwear.

DID I JUST SAY THAT!?! 

Embarassing!
But man, very fun.

You should try it.

Anyways! Now I'm going to go be with my best friend. Erron boy! 

Wahooooo!